Sol ([info]solfood) wrote,
@ 2006-03-16 14:20:00
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posted indirection @ ya
Quoted from a xanga comment i made:

I must put those dvds (LotR) in again sometime soon, as i feel similarly. It speaks to some deeper part of your self that it seems few things can touch in such a way. I must refuse to believe that such stories are just stories, for they speak a language that seems much more real than that language that humans use with each other on a daily basis: "oh how is the weather?" "fine" "how are the kids?" "Billy won the Science Olympiad award, how is your roof repair going?" "oh, pretty well i guess".

I think perhaps so much of the evil in this "world" we live in is internal and hidden, shady. In LOTR it is external for the most part. You know who the enemy is, you know they are bad, they want to kill you, you fight back. Here it's just...meh. The evil is everywhere but we can't fight it like that, not with sword and shield, axe and bow. If you try to then half the world hates you, if not more. Why can we not fight back like we feel so urged to do? Where is the evil? hiding in the shadows? manipulating politics? In a faraway country we cannot touch? It grows frustrating, then numbing, and eventually you grow apathetic, blame the world, blame god, blame your neighbors. Until something hits you, until you sit down and watch LotR or something similar. Then it's all back in a flash, but it hurts, because you know when the dvd credits end, it's back to reality, which is crap. Then it's back to being numb. It's sad, it's depressing, it's wrong, and I do not know how to overcome it at present. The shackles of the world are tight, and you are imprinted from youth to stay within the lines.

I got a fortune cookie last week whilst out to lunch. It read:
"Reality is for people who lack imagination."
I keep it in my wallet now.
Perhaps we are supposed to live in reality, I am not sure. What I do know is that doing so is almost unbearable. Reality is a numbing, killing force.

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[info]misterwizard
2006-03-17 01:35 am UTC (link)
I'm on page 500 or something in the Lord of the Rings trilogy right now. I know what you mean. You read that book or watch that movie and begin to convince yourself that something ought to be fought for in this world of ours.

I like to see myself as a Gandolf or as a ranger in the beginning chapters of the book and in the journey out of the shire. Always roaming the lands of middle earth ever in disguise of one's true identity, seaching after the enemy's servants and fighting small battles here and there, waiting patiently for what it is you were born to do and bearing in mind that you are yet a small part in a larger scheme.

I love that book.

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[info]solfood
2006-03-17 09:17 pm UTC (link)
Tolkien lived through both World Wars, and was a deep lover of the English countryside; Friend to the likes of C.S. Lewis.

It's not like there is not internal struggles in LotR either, as Boromir and Frodo readily prove. It's just that the real evil is clear, and it's able to be fought.

I feel currently as you describe: "waiting patiently for what it is you were born to do and bearing in mind that you are yet a small part in a larger scheme.". Hopefully I find out.

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[info]drug_lord
2006-03-17 07:34 pm UTC (link)
now, you know you could not mention LOTR and expect me to remain silent. Any and All Middle Earth Books are amazing. It might make me a dork, but I honestly believe my life would be drastically diffrent if I had never read Tolkien...and not in a good way. The scene in ROTK, when the Rohhirim charge onto the Pelennor, everytime I see that scene, I get a little misty-eyed. The first time I saw it in Theaters, I almost stodd up and started cheering. We all that. To have a clearly defined enemy, one that is undoubtedly evil, that we can charge headlong into and annhilate them. In that situation, there is no politics, there is no moral grey area. That is a kind of clarity that people do not have any more. I think my favorite thing to do with LOTR was to pick what race of Middle Earth people are. I am a dwarf, no doubt about it. I lack subtelty, I speak my mind more ofent then I should, and I am quick tempered...I also hate running, but I am "very dangerous over short distances". The bEauty is, other people placed me. Thats the only rule, you cannot pick what race you are, others have to do it for you. Chucko thought he was a wizard...laughable. He is hobbit.
Don't despair, reality is what you make of it.

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[info]solfood
2006-03-17 09:22 pm UTC (link)
in that case, would would i be, hum?

perhaps a drooling ogre =p

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you may not like it...
[info]drug_lord
2006-03-20 03:32 pm UTC (link)
but I decied what you were a long time ago. You are an Ent. Not like the Ents in the movies (which were a little dumb and easily manipulated), but an Ent from the book. The Ents were wise (a kind of wisdom that can only come from being as old and experienced as they were). You are not quick to anger, but when you become angry...watch out. True Force to be reckoned with. Even Sauruman could not handle the Ents.

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[info]drug_lord
2006-03-20 03:34 pm UTC (link)
sorry, didnt finish my thought. Ents were also shepards and protectors of the world. Very honorable qualities. They were also very stable (insert tree/deep roots comment here). You are the only Ent I know.

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[info]solfood
2006-03-20 05:25 pm UTC (link)
Sweet imma Ent. It's true I don't get angry easily often, and that when i do I have in the past had a tendancy to put my fist through plaster walls. Plus you know how the Ents could like see out over the treetops at the whole forest instead of being lost inside like the hobbits? Yea that's pretty much what it feels like being me in a large crowd.

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[info]drug_lord
2006-03-20 06:18 pm UTC (link)
Yeah, this whole race-picking thing occupied a lot of my time back during Sophomore and Junior year. Lenora (friend here at AU) and I were the two making the choices. But I also labbled all the guys from B-ville. As I said Chucko is a Hobbit. Jeff, he is a man of Gondor. He is smart, can be honorbale, and has one flaw which, at times, may prove to be fatal...pride. There are a lot of Men of Gondor. A few friends here are riders of Rohan...consdidered by most to be of lesser value then a Man of Gondor, and yet it is often their actions by which things are accomplised. After that, there are Rangers. Then, of course, there are elves. The two Hardest categories to reach are Ents, or Wizards. You are the only one I know who has achieven Ent status. I have one firend up here who I consider a Wizard, also the only one I know who fits that. I only know one other Dwarf, but that is notreally a hard race to achieve. Like I said. I speak my mind too often, I act before I think, on an hourly basis, I am often quick-tempered, I often despise people who have things/qualities I want (like Dwarves hate Elves), And yet, when I make a firend, that is a friend for life. I am a Dwarf.

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[info]drug_lord
2006-03-20 06:18 pm UTC (link)
My Sister is an orc, my brother is a Cave Troll

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(Anonymous)
2006-03-18 03:49 am UTC (link)
haha a drooling ogre?!!? i suppose...id say i'd definitely go for being an elf myself :P
your comments - i resonse to my deep and profound brain thinkings in my head - haha - was well put! i feel the same way and it's true that in this world I wish there were a clearly defined enemy and we could kick the crap out of it. but, sigh, such is not the case and many good things in life get twisted into something ugly! ~.~ LotR does just remind us there has to be something more out there...whatever that is. something has to sustain us through this "reality" more than mere chance or luck.

~E

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[info]solfood
2006-03-20 05:35 pm UTC (link)
drooling ogre, gotta set the bar low from the get-go so anything after it is a compliment.

Not sure about the elf part hmmm, maybe. Hard to say with a limited data set. Perhaps a human with a bit of that Numenor blood running through your veins, hailing from Rohan or Minith Tirith. Then again, the strong attraction to the sea is an elvish quality. On the other hand so is the attraction to the stars which seems to be more absent. I suppose the jury is still out o_O.

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[info]solfood
2008-04-04 10:33 pm UTC (link)
"Reality is a numbing, killing force."

Wow, I must have been pretty disillusioned with the world when I wrote that. I almost sound Goth or something.

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